Sophia Bush Particulars Alleged Bodily and Emotional Abuse on TV Present Set in Dialog with Monica Lewinsky

Sophia Bush is talking out a couple of poisonous work atmosphere and the alleged trauma she endured consequently.

On the Tuesday, June 3, episode of Reclaiming with Monica Lewinsky, Bush, 42, recalled becoming a member of a tv sequence after her nine-year run on the teenager drama One Tree Hill, which wrapped in 2012.

Whereas she didn’t instantly identify the TV present, she shared that it was on her “bucket listing.” Nonetheless, she suffered “all kinds” of abuse on the set, with “somebody sufficiently old to be [her] father.”

“Once I look again at it, I had the chance after two years to go,” Bush defined. “I did the factor I discovered to do and mentioned, ‘I can’t have my integrity diminished by another person’s conduct. I might be unflappable. I’ll come to work and do my job.’ And I couldn’t.”

She recalled waking up in “bodily hell,” having a “spontaneous sickness” and being “coated in hives.” Bush mentioned throughout this time, her weight additionally fluctuated and she or he skilled hair loss.

“As an extrovert who loves individuals, to be hit with nervousness in such a method that I may barely be out of the home; if individuals touched me in public, I might bounce out of my pores and skin,” she recalled. “I couldn’t speak to individuals anymore. I couldn’t speak to strangers anymore. I couldn’t be checked out anymore, particularly within the work atmosphere.”

Bush mentioned she discovered herself changing into defensive whereas engaged on the sequence, one thing she’d by no means skilled earlier than. “As a result of I needed to go to work prepared for battle on a regular basis, I needed to be taught the place to face to not get elbowed within the ribs or tips on how to block a scene to not be touched. It was simply exhausting,” she claimed.

The actress mentioned she wasn’t in a position to exit the present till April 2017, just a few months earlier than the #MeToo movement started. “By October [2017], I obtained a name from an govt apologizing for what they’d completed and never completed,” she mentioned. “And [they] mentioned, ‘We’re very conscious we simply made it out of that unscathed.’ ”

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Whereas Bush did not instantly identify the present she spoke of, from 2014 to 2017 she performed Erin Lindsay on the NBC police drama, Chicago P.D.

She opened up about her departure from the sequence in December 2017, telling Refinery 29’s Unstyled podcast that she was given two choices: change her atmosphere or have her character written off. “It was then that I spotted I’d been drowning. It was then that I knew simply how depressing I used to be going to work daily,” Bush recalled at the time. “I needed to respect myself in a state of affairs the place I didn’t really feel revered.”

PEOPLE reached out to Bush’s rep for remark and didn’t instantly hear again.

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